If I only had..

I realized I didn't blog about Time Out for Women!! I'll have to do that tomorrow when i have more time!

But one of the songs Hilary Weeks sang was her new one called, If I only had today..
It is amazing. I'm totally not one to listen to the words of a song unless I really like it. Well I started to cry during the conference when she sang this song. Seriously, like tears and everything, in front of God and everybody!! I know, dumb, right?? :)

OK so here are the lyrics for those that want to read it, others just scroll down to my questions...

It seems like I've watched a million sunsets
And stared at a thousands full moons
Sometimes it feels like I've been here forever
And sometimes it all feels brand new

I could never count the hearts beats
from the day I was born until now
But not a single one goes unnoticed
By Him who breathes life in me somehow

But if there were no more tomorrows
If I knew that I could not stay
I know how I'd spend every moment
If I only had today

I'd hold you and listen
And I'd let the dishes sit in the sink (how true is that?)
I'd tell you I loved you over and over
And for once I'd just let the phone ring (Wow yup I need to do that too)
Then I'd remind you of forever
And how our love would never change
If I only had today

I'd wake up before the sun did (Remember when you were first married you used to do this?)
And I'd watch as you quietly sleep
I'd pray for time to move slowly
Knowing the moment won't keep

All the gifts that Heaven has given
Every blessing that's come my way
Wouldn't mean anything without you
So if I only had today

I'd hold you and listen
I'd memorize every detail of your face
I'd tell you I loved you over and over
I wouldn't let excuses get in the way
Then I'd remind you of forever
And how our love would never change
If only had today

There's no time like present
Life doesn't come with any guarantees
The sun will set and time won't wait

So while I have today...chorus.


Now I think this hit me more than most people because my hubby is military. At any given moment he can be called to Iraq. He could be called to Korea. He could be called to Russia, or the country of Georgia. I have a wonderful friend who's husband is leaving in February for 'the desert' or Iraq for a year. It just brings this a little closer to home. Now because Chris is in the Air Force it's not likely that this will happen but it's still military. Chris' life isn't his, it's the government's. We love it, don't get me wrong. There's just prices that people sometimes forget.

(I'm not talking about suicide here people so don't even go there. I'm talking about if you knew you only had one day left.)

If I only had one more day, I would write love letters for everyone that's important to me, so they could have a peaceful grieving.
I would hug my kid so much he would probably be bruised! :)
I would smother my hubby and kid with sooo many kisses.
I would call my parents, share the Gospel with them.
I would watch the sunset with my hubby. I would have French toast for dinner. I would pray for it not to be painful for my hubby and family. I'd take a picture of myself.

So my question to you is, what would you do if you only had today?
(Would you fly to Disneyland, spend all your money, eat all the chocolate in reach??)